Happy Day 100

I have completed 100 days today and it was such a busy full day. I did everything although I was extremely shattered and drained throughout my day because I had a horrid sleep at night.

Today is Saturday; October 8th

The morning was very tiring as I woke up in pieces and had to take my lil one to the physiotherapy before heading to my private lesson. I got a bit late at my private lesson but it was done and it was a lot of fun. My private student is leaving in a few days and I find it very strange how I am getting emotional about them leaving. I am a HOARDER i guess that is why it is very difficult to let go.

After my lesson, I picked up my lil and dropped him off at home and that is when I received a call form one of my colleagues asking me to meet her up for a Mani and Padi..!! I was happy but at the same time I didn't know how to feel about leaving my lil one on our only day off. I was getting emotional again and decided maybe I should not go to stay with my lil one but my colleague sounded sad and in need of a pep-talk. I quickly changed my mind and went to met Sarah at the Beauty Parlor which was great, I felt refreshed, my feet felt great and Sarah had fun.

I ended up spending hours and hours out of the house which was unexpected and I got home very late, I only was able to sit with my lil one for an hour or so before I had another private lesson which lasted for about an hour and a half. Then I had to meet another friend to enjoy a bit of a walk and a SUCCULENT meal at a place called Papa J. When I got home, I found my poor lil one wide awake, waiting for me to tell me that his tap wasn't working.

My 100th day turned out to be such an interesting day with lots happening in it. Making memories is what it is all about. This journey has allowed me to grow, love my life and live the moment rather than wish for a different present and hope for an amusing future. I loved this journey and where it took and how I was capable to pick myself up through the ups and downs. Thank you for reading and following me on my blog, this post will mark the end of it. Keep enjoying your lives and live it rather than escaping it.

And for the last time, Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 99

The day I decided to cancel all my private lessons to live a normal day with my little man. I decided to socialize with some great people and chose not to get upset and angry at all the foolishness around me.

Today is Friday; October 7th

The day started off on a very strange tone where everything was ok and quickly it went down hill and I felt like running away from home and finding shelter somewhere else. The morning bore some great news which only one person is aware of as I did not share it with anyone. Every single time I tried to start my conversation regarding this topic I get interrupter and the topic tends to change and becomes the other individual's issue.

I decided to get my lil man who was dressed as a little Spiderman and took him to his shadow teacher's house. I spent the whole evening there as I wanted to see other people and socialize away from home, yet my small secret was unrevealed to anyone. My little man had such a great time with his teacher and he enjoyed spending some time away from our house.

Although it was the International Smile Day, it was filled with some issues and problems which I had to calmly face. I was surprised at my reaction at someone who burst in my face out of no where, normally I would burst back on them but this time I calmly gathered my breakfast and headed towards my room and started getting ready to leave the house with my lil man.

I know I am almost done with this challenge and my biggest challenge is to continue in the same light hearted mannar. Have a Great Morning Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 98

The day I felt appreciated and supported by my work place..!! This day is one of the rarest days ever, as it never happens often (we're not smooth like the weeknd!) and it was one of the nicest gestures ever.

Today is Thursday; October 6th

I am lucky enough to work with one of the most inspirational teachers in Sudan who I believe can teach me quite a lot about teaching, persistence, honesty and integrity. I was blessed by having her next to me to seek advice and comfort whenever possible. We agreed that we will alternate the swimming day between us to be able to complete our work as much as possible. So I decided to stay behind this morning to complete my correction, which I have done most of, and it felt very scary. It felt like I have abandoned my lil students and I was worried about them most of the time hence I was incapable to do as much work as possible. The day went by quite pleasantly as my students decided to behave better after our little mindful listening game we did yesterday which is part of The Mind Up program I started applying on the.

Just before we were done with school, the Deputy Head, asked me for 2 students and so I choose 2 of my best students and I complete forgot about them as I started lining up my children to have their fruit break. As soon as they walked in and without me noticing anything, shame on me, my student handed me  the prettiest flower in the history of flowers with a side note stuck on it just for me! I was pleasantly surprised by that and I immediately hugged my lil student and thanked her not knowing what is going on and why am I getting flowers. Lots of thoughts started rushing through my mind, (was it because I did such a great job at the observation, was it that I was finally appreciated), until I went to Miss Maria who informed me that it was World Teacher Appreciation Day.

The flower filled me with lots of joy, I was extremely happy throughout the rest of the day. Regardless of my complete and utter exhaustion, I decided to do a bit of work to prep for my short week coming up as that little single flower was the greatest incentive any workplace can give its employees to motivate them to work harder.

With this great feeling I will continue work as I wish all of you a Great Evening (^_^) 

Happy Day 97

MY IMPORTANT INTERVIEW AND MY OBSERVATION ALL HAPPENED ON THE SAME DAY..!! Today was double the stress and more than triple the anxiety.

Today is DREADFUL Wednesday, October 5th

Although I was quite calm about being observed for the first time in my new school, I was hoping that my lil ones would be on their best behaviour. As soon as my lesson was getting closer, I started getting ready for all of it. The lesson started and my assistant came in after them knowing that we will be observed this morning. I sat my lil cheeky monkeys down, however, they decided to start talking about what happened in their P.E. lesson which was that some of them were not following instructions and so they got punished by not getting to play during the lesson and instead they were watching the other teams playing. Not only that but they were also punished by not playing during their break. They were grumpy, some of t hem had to hide inside their shirts, others were teary, another group started imitating the others and it was complete chaos! and that was when the Deputy Head walked in!

It started becoming out of hand as I decided to talk to them about it, and so then my assistant decided to come in and rescue the whole situation by taking the crying boy out of the classroom to have a chat with him. That is when I thought to myself "THANK YOU LORD!"and that is when the lesson started flowing and I was able to get some work done. After the observation, I was unable to maintain eye contact with the Deputy Head and I refused to cross her path nor even start a small conversation. I stayed until the end of the day, just before I wanted to leave, I decided to have a chat with her about her feedback. The Feedback was greater than I thought and I felt more confident in myself after our chat and she definitely boosted my morals more than I thought, her feedback was extremely constructive and I felt like I was benefiting from it in comparison to other observations I was part of. The funny part is that I just walked into the office and I just said to the Deputy Head "Give it to me..!!" and I quickly requested the negative points and feedback first before anything.

After that I was about ready to tackle my interview which I was dreading and I was trying to avoid throughout the week. I failed miserably to study for the interview and I revised nothing of the work I was given. I just went in pretty much on time (again "Thank THE LORD for that") and I was quite exhausted from my draining day. I was also able to crack some jokes at the end as I had no clue what to say when I was asked about my other qualifications. the interview was confusing and long but I believe I did OK in it. I tried to talk about my current job and my previous experiences within this year which I felt comfortable thinking and talking about.

At the end of the interview, I was asked to leave, but I honestly had no clue what to do and if I should start shaking people's hands or not. Then I awkwardly got up, took my cup with me and started walking towards the door as I was say to the interviewee panel "Listen to me on the Radio this evening at 6pm.."

AWKWARD..!! (-_-)

I don't want to talk anymore about this exhausting day, I am drained just remembering what happened on this day.. so Have a Great Evening for now Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 96

Today was the day when I felt completely out of place and I had to keep questioning my position, my place and everything around me. "Not a Good Day" I kept repeating, and it was honestly one very low day.

Today is Tuesday; October 4th

Although I started off very early at school, it was one of these awkward days where you have a weird vibe and everything feels like a massive misfit. I went to school and I tried to keep a happy face which I was incapable of doing and I ended up being the teacher with the sad puppy face throughout the day. I was able to accomplish quite a lot and cover a lot of the stuff which was missed due to our long weekend but something was just not right. I talked to my friend about this day quite a lot and what is great is that she felt exactly the same and we were able to have a moment of sharing our strange vibes. I was also informed this afternoon that one of the most important interviews in my entire career is taking place tomorrow at 4pm (AND I HAVEN'T PREPARED FOR IT..!!).

After school this afternoon I had nothing and I was able to get my lil man from physiotherapy and I was able to get o the radio early enough to set my work and start thinking about the show. This evening's topic was one of my favourite topics as it covers one picture which has been circulating social media for quite a long time. What is really bizarre is that the photo has been shared without the rest of it and hence I decided to put it out there for my listeners.

During my show, I was blessed by a call from my sister who surprised me of being at a burger place and she bought some great burgers which I couldn't finish but I enjoyed every bite of it. A Great Meal marking the end of my STRANGE DAY.

Coming home to no private lessons allowed me to get a bit of rest with no headache, Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 95

Starting school on a Monday is so wrong..!!! I am less motivated than usual, less organised than usual.. and I feel like a lost person in the middle of the woods..!!

Today is Monday; October 3rd

It felt great seeing my students after the long weekend we had however I felt extremely lost and disoriented for some reason. I was extremely behind in handing most of my paper work and I had no clue what I am going to do this week. And what is worse is that the week has been shortened and I felt like the work has been piled instead of it being spread over its natural time.

I started my students on The Mind Up Program which is extremely interesting as they were able to grasp the idea a lot quicker than I thought and a lot more easier than I imagined. They were eager to draw the brain and understand their behaviour. The program is great and well researched.

After my crazy day at school, I went to my private lesson then I ended up heading to the radio for an interesting show about Africa.

I know it's quick but I honestly had a quick week with hardly anything exciting, so Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 94

I once posted on my Facebook account 3 years today the following
("First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win."
The very wise words of my role model #Gandhi #InternationalDayOfNonViolence) 

Today is Sunday; October 2nd

Being greeted this morning by something I posted in 2013 on Facebook was one of the things that really got me reflecting on where I was and where I am and what I have come across to achieve all this. I still remember when I barely had no money and I had to save every penny to make sure that my lil one and I have enough to get to physio and back. I still remember taking the bus in the heat wave with my lil one just to get to places. Life is filled with so much mysteries and all you have to do is keep unfolding the presents that come your way with the biggest smile you are capable of showing.

I keep getting asked at school (What am I on?) just because I walk into school with the biggest smile ever, not knowing the amount of horrid things I have experienced just to get to school in the morning. I smile because I have overcome so much not because I am special just because I remember the bad things, I am grateful for all the good things and I am proud of myself for merely surviving it all. I used to wish I had a better life, a better fortune but not anymore, this is where I am and this is where I am meant to be with my lovely little son who is a cerebral palsy patient. And I wish it no different any more.

Today was yet another difficult day, October is one mean month, with lots of work and running around as usual. I wanted to skip physiotherapy as my lil one was extremely drained and he wanted to play for a bit, however, I pushed through and we got out of the door at 11am. I had to gather all the strength in the world to step foot out of the house to face today as it was HOT HOT HOT and I had no motivation to do anything.

I forced myself to face people and be nice although I had a lot of difficult moments where I could have been a lot worse than how I acted. After my difficult day, I had a good private lesson with a student whose school fails to provide him with the minimum needs which got me even more livid and aggravated at the educational system in the country I live in although there are many great teachers but the bad ones seem to spread faster than super bugs.

At the end of my lesson, I had to take both my student and my lil one with me to the Radio Station as I promised my lil one. They both had fun and they enjoyed their time till my student's father picked him up and my lil one had to stay until I finished my show.

Now my lil man is sleeping happily and I need to prep for school which is tomorrow, so Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)  

Happy Day 93

The day I slept like a pig and woke up like a princess. I had nothing serious going on but I had to teach one of my students how to respect appointments, harsh but a must.

Today is Saturday, October 1st

I woke up after a very satisfactory sleep with great joy. My mum was feeling a bit better and the vibe was great. I had a private lesson in the early noon time however he decided not to show up on time. After about 2 hours and 40 minutes my student arrived extremely late and I had to send him back as he was very late. I was very strict and his mother was upset but it was meant to happen and had to happen. I am a very nice person and normally I let a lot of things slide but this one really was upsetting and I could't just let it go.

After my crazy incident, I had to complete my second private lesson which went very well as usual then I head home for a bit of break. I was up again in the evening for another lesson and I was done for this Saturday.

Today was unusually quite with nothing happening but here you go with an update, Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 92

It was meant to be a relaxed Friday however it turned into a busy one. I enjoyed it although I was extremely tense and my mind was busy with lots of work. What is keeping my sanity is that I have a long weekend and food, food, food and more fooooooood

Today is Friday, September 30th

The morning was great, I had an excellent start for my day as I was greeted by a great smile on my lil one's face which was SUPERB. The day continued to unfold some unexpected events; today was the day I had to look after my family. as soon as I left my room I came across my mum who was in a terrible mood and she wanted someone to listen to hear as she shares some stuff making her feel down  the past couple of days. I had to calm her down, knowing that I need someone to calm me down too, and I reassured her that it will all be sorted and I will fix everything.

As usual I had to fix it, being the only person around her at that moment. When that was all done and dusted, I went to my lil one who asked me to get him a toy which I am incapable of doing as I had no money on me. At that moment, I had to explain to my 7 year old son that money and objects are unimportant objects what is more important is family and being there for one another. It took him a while to understand why but I really hope it went through him and he understood it.

Knowing it was not enough, I had to walk out of my room yet again and I find something going wrong yet again (what a coincidence..!!). This time it was to do with my brother in law and our helper at home. She decided to leave work because the heat is unbearable..!! I had to talk to her extremely livid as she had the audacity to leave work without letting us know the day before. Again I had to deal with this issue ALONE, BY MYSELF with NO HELP from anyone around me then I completely crashed and decided to take my lil one on a date.

I guess eating out with my lil man is always a treat. It calmed me down quite a lot and helped gather my thoughts and clear my mind from all the negativity that was happening around me. As a single mother you are responsible for a lot of things and I hardly have time off work to spend with my own child, so I guess it all worked out well as I ended up having a bit of time with my lil one and it was different. Have a Great Evening for now Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 91

Although I started losing my voice again and the problem with my voice isn't completely resolved I had a great day at school where I went swimming where I enjoyed a great swim with my little ones and the teacher.

Today is Thursday; September 29th

I always start my days with energy for some reason, maybe it is because I love my job or maybe it is because I love the rickshaw ride till we get to the school. When I got there I was meant to do a lot of work but I wasn't able to complete any. The day was perfect overall, I loved how fast the day passed. So I was thinking about my students and I did a lot of research on how to teach my student to calm down and understand their actions a lot better. Out of the blue, I started remembering an interview Goldie Hawn did with Oprah about her school or something along those lines and it is to do with children and their attitudes, so I went online and started researching for what is it exactly that she did and I found out that she had an organisation and a program for school children called 'MindUp'. The more I read about it the more I fell in LOVE with it. I instantly downloaded the pdf file relevant for my students' age group and started implementing it today. I only started explaining to my students the main parts of the brain, the importance of those parts and how they work (lesson 1). I honestly didn't think I will grab their attention this quickly but it was magical. Therefore, I decided to start it next week and let's see how it changes my little ones.

After the school, I went to my private lesson then to the Radio where I was waiting for one of the best interviews I have ever conducted on my show. It was quite entertaining and I loved having a chat with 2 talented young men who are balancing between their day jobs and their musical talents.

The interview was honestly the cherry on top for my week and I am grateful that I was there to conduct it. I am crashing with extremely low energy as usual so Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 90

So as you guessed it.. I was away for about 2 day..YES 2 DAYS..!! I was sick and out of service for both days but today I decided to pick up all the bits and pieces of my energy to go to school and resume my life as normal.

Tuesday's Topic was the first Hijabi on Playboy Magazine

Today is Wednesday; September 28th

I was very hesitant to go back to school today for some odd reason, I always feel useless and out of place once I take a day off or miss a day of work. However, once I stepped foot at school I was greeted by one of my students who ran towards me and gave me a massive hug. I missed my students and I thought they forgot about me but they did not. I missed each and every student, these little ones felt like my children whom I have abandoned for 2 days. We had a great day together and I also received some bad feedback on the behaviour of some of them. I was quickly on top of things. And I was thinking and planning to change their behaviour and attitudes toward each other. I finally felt like I fitted in perfectly and that is the feeling that reassures me that I was born to become a teacher. Teaching is the only job I can imagine myself do until I die, and having days off or being absent just reminds me how much I love my job and I honestly appreciate it.

After school I was able to do a bit of work on my classroom and arranged some stuff then I headed home for a bit of break. Then I quickly went to my second love which was the Radio. Although Tuesday was the day I officially started after a couple of days off, but today felt even better and more powerful. I enjoy my time and I love the space the Radio provides for me. My Tuesday show was great because I just came back and I was able to play some great new songs which my listeners loved as much as I did. I was singing and dancing to the new songs and even some of the listeners commented about how great my list of songs was. Today, the show was also great as my listeners loved the topic and they were able to comment endlessly on what would they do if they were in that position.

Wednesday's Topic 

Getting back to work is like getting back to life, I guess that is the meaning of a workaholic..! Have a Great Evening for now Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 87

Although I was extremely out of breath and had little to no energy I decided to head to school and push through this week. Was I wrong or WAS I WRONG TO DO SO..!!!

Today is Sunday; September 25th

Since I started losing my voice last Thursday then almost got it back through the weekend, I thought it would be absolutely fine to push through this week and get on with stuff. The problem was that I pushed way too much and I ended up losing my voice completely at the end of the school day. I was extremely devastated as I had no voice by the time I was going to my private lesson, but I pushed and I was exhausted.

I had to call in sick for the radio and I ended up giving a late lesson for my student as she is travelling very soon. I was still exhausted and ended up gong home to relax and the herbalist in me thought why not have a clove of garlic before going to bed as it might help get my voice back.

And I completely forgot to mention that My student gave me some dried seaweed snack which I ADORE and I love although everyone is fussing about how it hold no nutritional value..!! I DON'T CARE..

The Evening is passing and I have no energy so have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 86

My day off with no work, social life and nothing, let's start reflecting instead...

Today is Friday; September 23rd

I planned ages ago to start homeschooling my lil one as I still haven't found a school that will take him with his disability and is ready to conduct oral examinations for him. However, my plan of homeschooling has failed miserably. The problem is that I am constantly working to provide him with the health care he needs and the personal care he needs. I am also working between my full time and part time jobs. It is sometimes overwhelming to the extend that I hardly see my lil one and I hardly spend any time with him (poor child..!!).

When I look back at his life, poor thing, I feel like I missed out on many goals he had achieved. It is extremely sad but it is very expensive and maintaining a good life style is very difficult specially when you are a single mother. My lil one is still attending an activity centre in the morning where he interacts with other children, however, school is still not on my list. I have been told about 2 schools one of which is ready to accept him the way he is and put him with his peers who are his age, I will be visiting this school very soon and he might start with them after Christmas. Another school which is known as the best Arabic Language school in Khartoum, is on my list but I don't have a lot of information on that school except that it is extremely far.

Finding a school is not only a difficult part in any parent's journey but it is also draining to a crazy extend. I am blessed that I decided to stop him from school this year as it was increasing the stress between us and our relationship has grown to become very intense and extremely uncomfortable due to the amount of school work he had to do, not putting in mind his Cerebral Palsy and all the physical limitation it had on his muscle control.

I understand him more now and I do allow my lil one a bit of space to do things the way he wants to do it without the intensity of perfecting his handwriting, his writing skills and reading skills. I only started loving him for the person he is not the image I wan him to be. Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 85

It was tough, very tough, as in very very very tough today, my little monkeys were all over the place and I tried my best to contain myself and keep a smile till the last minute.. and guess what..!! I SUCCEEDED (^_^)

Today is Thursday; September 22nd

I was extremely excited because it was the end of the week, however, I had a lot of work to finish and I was behind in everything. The day started on a great note where I got to school on time, my little ones were ready in no time for the swimming and we got there and enjoyed our time. The problem occurred when we got back to school, managed to finish our spelling and assessments on time but my little ones started becoming more and more energetic and out of control for no reason. They ended up calming down after watching a short animated movie for about 5 minutes long which was great.

Every time my little ones act up and start becoming all over the place, I feel like I am an incapable teacher. It hits me right in the core.!! Anywho, instead of letting this thought conquer my soul, I killed it and nipped it from the bud straight away and continued with my crazy day with my cheeky monkeys.

After school, my voice started disappearing slowly but surely and I ended up scraping the private lesson with a bit of voice, however, my voice started disappearing completely at the radio. My voice was cracking badly and sounded bad on air but I continued with the little voice I had.

I decided to take the weekend off with no lessons nor visits nor work to help my voice recover a bit in preparation for next week.

With no voice and hardly any energy I wish you all a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^) 

Happy Day 84

The day I got hold of it again. I tried to get everything together and started appreciating my days and my busy life a lot more. I still have everything and it feels like I am trying to swim against the current.

Today is Wednesday; September 21st

Another rough night and another rough day at school. Last night I hardly slept due to the electricity cut outs that happened because of the thunderstorm. I had to struggle in the morning because not only did I not have any sleep but I also am getting sicker and sicker by the minute. I am carrying a very strange chest infection that is not clearing. I had to take my lil one to the centre because I know that no one will look after him at home and no one will take him to the physo session he needs. Although I know I am the sole adult responsible of my lil one, I still need some people to help me out and to carry my burden with me. I need a support and a backbone that I can turn to whenever I am down and struggling to survive and stay on top of all my hurdles.

School was fine today as y lil ones were behaving nicely and I was able to control them a lot better. I started them on a class tree of behaviour where they have to collect 25 leaves to get reworded by being part of a group activity such as a movie night and so on. I was also happy with their work in the ART lesson where they did a water cycle in a paper plate which turned out to be a massive success.

Now I am trying to stay up at the Radio as I have a couple of private lessons right after, however, I am finding it extremely difficult to do so. I am surviving on pure coffee this week, may it all come to an end very soon as I am draining all my stored energy from the holiday.

Have a Great Evening for now Lovelies (^_^) 

Happy Day 83

The day I effed up massively at work and I feel so crap that I don't want to face anyone. In other words, the day my castle came tumbling down off the top of this Happy Hill.

Today is Tuesday; September 20th

The day was extremely rough as I was still feeling under the weather and I wasn't able to take my lil one to the centre nor to the physiotherapy session (although I arranged a taxi to pick him up and drop him at physio and the guy cancelled last minute...argh..!!). School was extremely rough too because I found out that I sent the wrong homework with the students and it was NOT RIGHT..!! I felt very bad about the mistake and I felt like a failure for missing that out on my main plan.

I also planned to stay after school, however, I failed to do that too because I felt extremely horrible. I decided to go home to relax to find out that there wasn't any electricity at home and my lil one and his cousin were sitting around enjoying the heat wave. I was extremely fed up..!!! And what made it all even worse is that the orders which I was meant to collect after school have been postponed to after Radio.

After Radio, I had to wait to collect my orders, drop an order all the way in the city centre and get back home to an empty house where the little ones were extremely tired and had no supervision. My mum left to attend a little gathering and my sister was at the hospital. I felt very exhausted and extremely drained as soon as I got home, but I had to feed the little one and put the rest to sleep. I felt all alone this day as if no one is there to help me out, I had no support and no one to talk to. Life is difficult as it is and no one is trying to make it easier.

At least I got a bag of coffee from Ethiopia from my dearest friend Maria as well as earrings. more earrings to my collection and a gift from France from another great friend Irina.

Have a Great Evening Lovelies for now, I need to rest my eyes (^_^)

Happy Day 82

A sleepless night filled with tossing and turning and aggravating fever.

Today is Monday; September 19th

I honestly just wanted to curl up in bed this evening, switch off my phone and not to face the world. If it wasn't for my students and the fact that I know no one will be able to complete my plan the way I want to, I would have been spending the night at home with my lil one who was also not feeling well as all. I dragged myself out of bed with my feverish body and drowsy head and upset stomach. I had to sip on Lemon juice so as to stop myself from emptying my stomach first thing in the morning. Due to my unknown sickness my lil one had to stay at home too (Thankfully his shadow teacher called me first thing in the morning and she informed me of her inability to attend school today because her son broke his hand @_@).

I walked ever so slowly to the rickshaw which I had to wait for for a bit then I got to school quite early. I was unable to walk up the stairs nor sit and print my work, my only saving grace was my first lesson which will be taught by the Arabic Teacher. As I dragged my feet down the stairs to prepare the lesson worksheets, I decided to get some coffee which was my last resort before informing the principal of my decision of going home a bit early due to my sickness. I got my coffee made for me by my great Ethiopian friend Tigis and I accidentally met the principal whom I told of my illness and my health condition. As soon as I sipped a bit of the coffee I felt energetic instantly and I felt like nothing was wrong. I decided to continue my day without cutting it short as if nothing had happened, thankfully my little monkeys behaved superb and that what helped me continue the day with great energy. I also had another sip of coffee just to make sure that its effect will continue even after the school hours as I had my private lesson and Radio.

The private lesson was great, it is flowing quite smoothly and I am able to complete the unit in time before she travels back to China. Radio went well but the best part of it was getting a present of Sarah (who works at the Radio and just got back from Tunisia and she also started the 362 days of happiness after witnessing my 100 days of happiness). I FINALLY GOT NEW EARRINGS and a HERBAL SOUP (^_^)

With my exhausting day and my draining evening I must say Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^) 

Happy Day 81

I always go through bouts of anxiety attacks on my first day of school, whether that first day is actually first day of school or just the first after a long break. I always have crazy thoughts and ideas crossing my mind such as handing in y resignation and  staying at home for good and the fact that I don't need work after all and maybe I should just stay at home and ignore everything and everyone. That was me the night before school started.

Today is Sunday; September 18th

I woke up terribly late this morning and I had to get ready and get my lil one ready in 30 minutes before the rickshaw arrives. Thankfully, I am great at doing things very quick and so I was pretty much ready in 32 minutes which was perfectly timed with the rickshaw's arrival. My lil one was extremely happy to get to the centre where he goes every morning, and I got to school on time as usual. I managed to prepare everything, all the handouts, homework and exercise sheets for the day, and to my surprise as I walked down I found out that my Teacher Assistant was absent. I was happy because I didn't have many students and I didn't have much work to do as it was the first day after a long break. 

The day went by very smoothly to t he extend that my little ones were helping me quite a lot with clearing and organizing their folders and prepping their homework sheets. This made my bond with my lil one grow even greater once I was able to trust them with little chores around the classroom. I had one great teacher checking on me, bless her heart and she was able to see how much I was handling the little monkeys. 

My biggest challenge today was to stay awake throughout this exhausting day as I had private lesson as well as an important interview at the Radio where I am expecting my guests to arrive at 5:45pm. Thankfully, and a massive one too, the private lesson finished quickly and I was able to get to the Radio just in tie for my crazy important interview which was about an important event taking place on Thursday. The interview was crazy and I enjoyed every bit of it and I felt like I have a great group of acquaintances in the cultural scene of Khartoum which I am grateful for (I met Mr Manfred the head of the Goethe Institute, Mr Akinbode a famous Nigerian Photographer and Mr Ala a famous Sudanese Photographer)

My interesting Interviewee :)

I feel a bit queezy so you will have to excuse me for now, Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 80

The day my little one got home was the best. I also had nothing to do and nowhere to be except by his side. It was the best feeling I have ever felt when I saw y little one to the extend that I wanted to get him from physio although I can get someone to pick him up.

Today is Saturday; September 17th

The day started very relaxed although I had a plan at the back of my head which I completely ignored to enjoy my day. Time was passing very slowly as it was the day when my lil one was expected to come home after his 3 day sleep over at his physiotherapist. When the clock hit 11:30 am I was getting ready to go pick him up, however, I remembered that the cost of going and coming will be crazy and so I decided to send him a taxi to pick him up and so I did that. It was a lot easier and much more convenient. 

I received a call from the Taxi driver to inform me that he is at the door, I didn't know what to do and what to wear and how to act as soon as I look at my lil man. My anxiety was building and I was smiling uncontrollably when I got to the door. The minute I opened the door there was no car in front me instead the car was parked on the side due to the jam on our road caused by a funeral next door. My lil one peaked out of the car window like a little cheeky monkey and that's when our eyes met and I said 'Aboodi' at the same time when he said 'Mama'. 

That was such a priceless moment and I did miss his cheeky face, he didn't say anything other than all the stories that happened at physio this day and he forgot all about the few days he spent at the physiotherapist's. I had to continuously jog his memory with endless questions which he found extremely tedious and finally stopped talking about the sleep over altogether.

It was a great day filled with crazy things, I am glad my lil one is here this evening and I am extremely excited about our time together. I have to prep for school tomorrow so Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 79

I know.. I know.. I accidentally published this post before writing anything in it. It was very late and I just wanted to save the post and instead of clicking the save button, I clicked the publish button. Today was the day of an important meeting, if I end up getting this job then working all over the city is going to stop and I will only work sensible hours.

Today is Friday; September 16th

I had no work nor any commitment this Friday, no private lessons, no appointments nothing. I only had an important meeting mid-day; at 1pm! I was extremely excited about this opportunity as I have been waiting for it for a very long time. I received the unexpected phone-call yesterday afternoon and the appointment was made for an informal chat.

When I got to the organisation, I met my friend who I expected to see there, we had a wonderful chat about work, life and everything. Catching up with lovely individuals is always nice, but I had to cut it short because I had to start my "Informal Chat". I went upstairs and to my surprise, I was welcomed by a young lady with the nicest smile ever. She was the one who called and asked for the chat, she was enthusiastic, optimistic and full of energy. she updated me with everything and asked me few questions. She also informed me that I would have to come again for a formal interview with the presence of her "boss". I was immediately tense by that and I started stressing, she gave me a pile of information which I had to go through very well before the interview and she asked me to be well prepared when it comes down to the interview. That didn't make me feel any better, as I grew more and more anxious as she spoke about the formal interview. I am not a person who stresses or experiences panic attacks during an interview, however, this one just made me stress for some reason. It might be because of how serious this organisation is and how serious and important the job is for my life.

I then attended a couple of classes and it was quite fun, I spoke to a couple of teachers and that was great. I also had the chance to continue talking to my friend. After the massive interview of the day, I decided to go to the mall to have a bite and walk around as my anxiety did not settle for some reason. I enjoyed a superb Chinese takeaway, lovely Ice-cream and what felt like a spiked Frapaccino..!

It was a great as I spent a long time out of the house since my lil one is still having that endless sleep over. I need  to sit and study for now so Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 78

The most awkward day without my lil man..!! Although I did quite a lot and I was able to allow some great moments of realization, being alone is very difficult.

Today is Thursday; September 15th

The first night without my lil one has passed quite swiftly, although I couldn't sleep straight away and I was both out and up till very late. The morning was great but the weather was extremely HOT and SUNNY. My lesson went great and my student was so happy as we will finally have a break after 5 consecutive lessons. She read great and was able to finish all her exercises on time.

After the lesson, I was able to get to my favourite restaurant Papa Costa for a bite and to spend a bit of time with someone special then I went to the empty house where I had no son nor chores to fulfill.
In the evening, I decided to go out again to book my mum a hotel room as a present for her to relax and enjoy a bit of time away from home and the kids; to my surprise, I found out for the first time in my entire life and existence in Sudan, that women are not allowed to stay in a hotel in their own and so my entire plan was screwed thanks to our stupid laws.

I had to get back home completely vexed and extremely livid at my recent discovery but I did not know how to react to such news. I wasn't upset nor sad, I was instead thinking of other ways to fix the situation and make my mum happy about being here.

Have a Great Evening Lovelies for now till I find a better plan on how to have fun here (^_^) 

Happy Day 77

I wasn't going to post anything this evening as I just returned home at 1am and I am extremely tired, drained and exhausted of my busy day. However, I just discovered that I am petrified of the dark and I am incapable of falling asleep in an empty room (this epiphany has just been dropped on me the day my lil man went to sleep over at his other mother's house).

Today is a lovely Wednesday; September 14th

I was really tired when I woke up and I completely felt like doing absolutely nothing this morning but mys sense of commitment towards my student forced me to get up, get ready and head to her place for an intriguing session. I was finally able to break the barrier between my student and myself, I always her to speak and express herself and she felt comfortable to tell jokes in her own little sense of humor. 

After returning home, I was preparing my lil man's backpack for his sleep over this evening. He was invited to spend the night over at his close therapist's house, I know some of you will feel very strongly about allowing your 7 year old to sleep over at someone's house, keep in mind that here in Sudan (for some awkward reason) everyone is related and you end up creating bonds rather than just people you meet. My lil man's physiotherapist is not just a therapist, he knows her since 2013 and he has been to her house 3 times already. He knows every person in her house and almost all of her family members very well. I believe that allowing my lil man to explore life without me is essential for his own sense of accomplishment and independence. 

He is always HAPPY whenever we go to a doctor's appointment!

I was dwelling on the fact that I didn't want him to go away from me because we have never parted in 3 years. I miss him already as we speak but I know he will have fun. I took my lil one to his friend's house in the afternoon then straight after the little visit we went to our annual doctor's appointment who is an experienced orthopedic pediatrician. I was pleased to hear that my lil man does not need any more surgery only physiotherapy to strengthen his weak left leg. 

The appointment came to an end very late and I had to leave the hospital, however, I knew I will not be leaving with my lil man (I WILL BE LEAVING ALONE). It had to be done though, I gave my lil man a massive hug and I crushed my soul and my weeping heart so as to not feel any pain while I walk away from him. 

Selfies at the Hospital

I spent the evening with my friend sipping coffee till about 1 after midnight before returning to an empty room which reminded me of how scared I am of the dark. As soon as I got home, I asked for photos of my lil man and I got quite a lot, yet it did not change the fact that my room is way too empty and I keep hearing sounds I never heard when my lil one was around. 

Are you scared of the dark? 

Have a Great Night Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 76

Second day of Eid and it just keeps getting more and more complicated. I have never seen as much twists and turns as I have seen these couple of days. Continuing the Eid spirit everyone, so Eid Mubarak (^_^)

Today is Tuesday; September 13th

This morning I was surprised by a phone call from my lil one's physiotherapist. She was kind enough to wish me an Eid Mubarak before cutting to the chase and asking me quite bluntly if it would be O.K. with me if my lil one had a sleep over at her place tomorrow. I was quite surprised at the request but knowing her and knowing her entire family, I figured that something was up and they want my lil one to be part of it (yes this might sound as vague and as strange as the request, but my lil one has spent the night over at her place before when it was her nephews birthday. They are like his long lost not related family). I was very happy with that invitation but normally I don't join him in such invitation so I had to face some of my anxieties in my quiet space and between me, myself and I. My little one and I are practically inseparable and have always faced the world together, so having to sleep in an empty room without him being around to bug me all night is quite difficult for me. I consider my lil man as my strength and positive source. In my head the thoughts kept piling up until I had to clear my thoughts and believe that having sometime away from each other is not only good for me it is great for him.

I went to my private lesson with the massive weight of anxiety, however, the lesson went great and the student worked quite had during the 2 hours. After the lesson, I was able to spend more time with my lil one as I had nothing to do. He was glued to YouTube as he adore Ryan and keeps reacting the scenes of his videos to me with all the sound effects and different voices. Spending some time with my lil one is one of the things I have missed quite a lot, my continuous work and various commitments never allowed me to spend such a long time with him, but I believe things will change for the best and I will plan one of our greatest holidays this year because he and I deserve it.

As you all know by now, I started working on my Box Theatre thing which is coming together extremely nicely. I was able to complete the tree house and some of the furniture this evening, to say the least check out the photos and enjoy the details. I was able to complete a massive chunk of the house and solve many of my problems while doing this. It is one of the most satisfactory things I have ever done in my entire life.

Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 75

And so the Eid begins and I decide to spend it entirely at home with my family. Thank goodness I have work in the morning; this is how I keep my sanity to face my lovely days (@_@)

Today is Monday; September 12th

Eid day one was spectacular, I woke up early and I got my lil one ready at 8am with his new shirt. I also got ready although I just wore some of my old borrowed blouses. As soon as I walked out of the house, I saw our sheep which was alive and making so much noise. I went on my way to my lesson and passed-by the empty streets. Everyone was outside with their sheep getting ready to cut them. I love my drives around the city, it has almost turned into a therapeutic session which is vital for my own sanity. 

The lesson went well and my student started talking a lot more and so the lessons have been extended so we can work more and get things done a lot faster. I asked my lil student about her pet grasshopper which is no where to be seen and she told me that the grasshopper refused to eat and so she freed him yesterday evening so that it doesn't die. She is a fascinating little student with lots of stories and an immense imagination. One of her stories which sound quite legit and true, was that in her province in China they started adding "poison" (pesticides) on the leaves to kill grasshoppers which enraged the people because they were against this crime. She continued to explain that the city was becoming dirtier with all the dead grasshoppers and so they started to wash the leaves to feed the grasshoppers!(now the question that asks itself; did she imagine all this or was it true that they are amazing people?).

After the lesson, I got home and started on y little box theatre house thing, just to let you know "IT IS DIFFICULT AS HELL..!!". I kept at it until it started getting to my nerves and so I decided to stop before I turn into an ugly evil witch because of this thing which was meant to calm me down. At that point, I promised my lil one a little outing where we are going to eat at a restaurant. As promised, we went to a restaurant and he was so good that other kids and parents started wondering how he can be this cheerful. THANK GOODNESS.

I saw my lovely cousins, had a great burger and had a great chat with my student; this puts a great ending to my first day. Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 74

It is the last day of work before I stop for Eid. This time I decided to spend my holidays at home regardless of the vibes I get from home. 

Today is Sunday; September 11th

The day started with waking up very disoriented and extremely delusional. I managed to get to my private lesson on time although I was fasting and very much asleep. The rickshaw ride to my student's house is to die for, the weather was splendid and seeing everyone rushing around on the last day before Eid was very refreshing. The lesson went well and my lil student caught yet another pet grasshopper and this time it is a bit big and in a smaller water bottle. She was really excited with her find as this one can drink water; she shared. It was very sad that her excitement was met with pure and utter fear and disgust, as I was incapable of hiding my complete shock when my lil one shook the bottle for the grasshopper to jump around. 

After my exciting lesson, I had a bit of a break at home then I head towards the radio for my last show before Eid. Although I am not ina managerial position, I found the idea of taking a week off was extremely long and unnecessary. We are media personals and we represent the people around us and I found having a holiday was not natural. I wanted to be part of the listeners lives and ins and outs, I wanted to be the first to talk with them after the 3rd day of Eid as you want to know what have they been upto. I guess I am going to stop complaining and I will appreciate the time off I got from the Radio.

I decided to start my box theatre mission which I will be updating you with on a daily process, wish me luck. I bought this piece about a month ago and yet had no tie to look at it nor explore it before diving right into it today. This afternoon, right before the Radio, I looked into the box, explored what is in it and I thought to myself I can make it and finish it before the holidays come to an end (my idealist views which are going to be crushed into dinky pieces probably). 

Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)  

Happy Day 73

The day was filled with unexpected events from beginning to end. I was out and about and I was able to get lots done.

Today is Saturday; September 10th

The day started as early as usual as I had a private lesson in the morning. The weather was extremely hot and the sun was very bright, it was a very difficult morning to be out and I couldn't wait to head home. The best part of the day was that I was able to give my lil one's glasses to the optician's to get fixed after sitting on the side for over a month. And when I went to hand in the glasses, they asked me about my lil one's age which was important because they were handing gifts for youngsters. Once I collected my lil one's unexpected gift, I managed to pick up his medicine from the pharmacy as he ran out a few days ago.

The afternoon was quick and light, I enjoyed a meal with my lil one and my nephew. I completed and handed in my work which was such a relief. And at the end of the afternoon I decided to get some alone time and went to the mall to get my lil one some shirts for eid. It was fun to be able to have some adult time without any children around me, I honestly miss some grownup times because I am constantly surrounded by youngster whether at work or at my private lessons. Sometimes it gets a bit overwhelming and you end up bursting into action when all you are doing is just trying to get a little bit more comfortable.

It rained this evening, my lil one and I enjoyed listening to the rain while talking about the most random things ever. My lil one tried his clothes and was chuffed by the size of all of the shirts I bought and he was specially happy about one shirt that I kept saying it looked like his grandfather's shirts.

Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)