Happy Day 79

I know.. I know.. I accidentally published this post before writing anything in it. It was very late and I just wanted to save the post and instead of clicking the save button, I clicked the publish button. Today was the day of an important meeting, if I end up getting this job then working all over the city is going to stop and I will only work sensible hours.

Today is Friday; September 16th

I had no work nor any commitment this Friday, no private lessons, no appointments nothing. I only had an important meeting mid-day; at 1pm! I was extremely excited about this opportunity as I have been waiting for it for a very long time. I received the unexpected phone-call yesterday afternoon and the appointment was made for an informal chat.

When I got to the organisation, I met my friend who I expected to see there, we had a wonderful chat about work, life and everything. Catching up with lovely individuals is always nice, but I had to cut it short because I had to start my "Informal Chat". I went upstairs and to my surprise, I was welcomed by a young lady with the nicest smile ever. She was the one who called and asked for the chat, she was enthusiastic, optimistic and full of energy. she updated me with everything and asked me few questions. She also informed me that I would have to come again for a formal interview with the presence of her "boss". I was immediately tense by that and I started stressing, she gave me a pile of information which I had to go through very well before the interview and she asked me to be well prepared when it comes down to the interview. That didn't make me feel any better, as I grew more and more anxious as she spoke about the formal interview. I am not a person who stresses or experiences panic attacks during an interview, however, this one just made me stress for some reason. It might be because of how serious this organisation is and how serious and important the job is for my life.

I then attended a couple of classes and it was quite fun, I spoke to a couple of teachers and that was great. I also had the chance to continue talking to my friend. After the massive interview of the day, I decided to go to the mall to have a bite and walk around as my anxiety did not settle for some reason. I enjoyed a superb Chinese takeaway, lovely Ice-cream and what felt like a spiked Frapaccino..!

It was a great as I spent a long time out of the house since my lil one is still having that endless sleep over. I need  to sit and study for now so Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 78

The most awkward day without my lil man..!! Although I did quite a lot and I was able to allow some great moments of realization, being alone is very difficult.

Today is Thursday; September 15th

The first night without my lil one has passed quite swiftly, although I couldn't sleep straight away and I was both out and up till very late. The morning was great but the weather was extremely HOT and SUNNY. My lesson went great and my student was so happy as we will finally have a break after 5 consecutive lessons. She read great and was able to finish all her exercises on time.

After the lesson, I was able to get to my favourite restaurant Papa Costa for a bite and to spend a bit of time with someone special then I went to the empty house where I had no son nor chores to fulfill.
In the evening, I decided to go out again to book my mum a hotel room as a present for her to relax and enjoy a bit of time away from home and the kids; to my surprise, I found out for the first time in my entire life and existence in Sudan, that women are not allowed to stay in a hotel in their own and so my entire plan was screwed thanks to our stupid laws.

I had to get back home completely vexed and extremely livid at my recent discovery but I did not know how to react to such news. I wasn't upset nor sad, I was instead thinking of other ways to fix the situation and make my mum happy about being here.

Have a Great Evening Lovelies for now till I find a better plan on how to have fun here (^_^) 

Happy Day 77

I wasn't going to post anything this evening as I just returned home at 1am and I am extremely tired, drained and exhausted of my busy day. However, I just discovered that I am petrified of the dark and I am incapable of falling asleep in an empty room (this epiphany has just been dropped on me the day my lil man went to sleep over at his other mother's house).

Today is a lovely Wednesday; September 14th

I was really tired when I woke up and I completely felt like doing absolutely nothing this morning but mys sense of commitment towards my student forced me to get up, get ready and head to her place for an intriguing session. I was finally able to break the barrier between my student and myself, I always her to speak and express herself and she felt comfortable to tell jokes in her own little sense of humor. 

After returning home, I was preparing my lil man's backpack for his sleep over this evening. He was invited to spend the night over at his close therapist's house, I know some of you will feel very strongly about allowing your 7 year old to sleep over at someone's house, keep in mind that here in Sudan (for some awkward reason) everyone is related and you end up creating bonds rather than just people you meet. My lil man's physiotherapist is not just a therapist, he knows her since 2013 and he has been to her house 3 times already. He knows every person in her house and almost all of her family members very well. I believe that allowing my lil man to explore life without me is essential for his own sense of accomplishment and independence. 

He is always HAPPY whenever we go to a doctor's appointment!

I was dwelling on the fact that I didn't want him to go away from me because we have never parted in 3 years. I miss him already as we speak but I know he will have fun. I took my lil one to his friend's house in the afternoon then straight after the little visit we went to our annual doctor's appointment who is an experienced orthopedic pediatrician. I was pleased to hear that my lil man does not need any more surgery only physiotherapy to strengthen his weak left leg. 

The appointment came to an end very late and I had to leave the hospital, however, I knew I will not be leaving with my lil man (I WILL BE LEAVING ALONE). It had to be done though, I gave my lil man a massive hug and I crushed my soul and my weeping heart so as to not feel any pain while I walk away from him. 

Selfies at the Hospital

I spent the evening with my friend sipping coffee till about 1 after midnight before returning to an empty room which reminded me of how scared I am of the dark. As soon as I got home, I asked for photos of my lil man and I got quite a lot, yet it did not change the fact that my room is way too empty and I keep hearing sounds I never heard when my lil one was around. 

Are you scared of the dark? 

Have a Great Night Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 76

Second day of Eid and it just keeps getting more and more complicated. I have never seen as much twists and turns as I have seen these couple of days. Continuing the Eid spirit everyone, so Eid Mubarak (^_^)

Today is Tuesday; September 13th

This morning I was surprised by a phone call from my lil one's physiotherapist. She was kind enough to wish me an Eid Mubarak before cutting to the chase and asking me quite bluntly if it would be O.K. with me if my lil one had a sleep over at her place tomorrow. I was quite surprised at the request but knowing her and knowing her entire family, I figured that something was up and they want my lil one to be part of it (yes this might sound as vague and as strange as the request, but my lil one has spent the night over at her place before when it was her nephews birthday. They are like his long lost not related family). I was very happy with that invitation but normally I don't join him in such invitation so I had to face some of my anxieties in my quiet space and between me, myself and I. My little one and I are practically inseparable and have always faced the world together, so having to sleep in an empty room without him being around to bug me all night is quite difficult for me. I consider my lil man as my strength and positive source. In my head the thoughts kept piling up until I had to clear my thoughts and believe that having sometime away from each other is not only good for me it is great for him.

I went to my private lesson with the massive weight of anxiety, however, the lesson went great and the student worked quite had during the 2 hours. After the lesson, I was able to spend more time with my lil one as I had nothing to do. He was glued to YouTube as he adore Ryan and keeps reacting the scenes of his videos to me with all the sound effects and different voices. Spending some time with my lil one is one of the things I have missed quite a lot, my continuous work and various commitments never allowed me to spend such a long time with him, but I believe things will change for the best and I will plan one of our greatest holidays this year because he and I deserve it.

As you all know by now, I started working on my Box Theatre thing which is coming together extremely nicely. I was able to complete the tree house and some of the furniture this evening, to say the least check out the photos and enjoy the details. I was able to complete a massive chunk of the house and solve many of my problems while doing this. It is one of the most satisfactory things I have ever done in my entire life.

Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 75

And so the Eid begins and I decide to spend it entirely at home with my family. Thank goodness I have work in the morning; this is how I keep my sanity to face my lovely days (@_@)

Today is Monday; September 12th

Eid day one was spectacular, I woke up early and I got my lil one ready at 8am with his new shirt. I also got ready although I just wore some of my old borrowed blouses. As soon as I walked out of the house, I saw our sheep which was alive and making so much noise. I went on my way to my lesson and passed-by the empty streets. Everyone was outside with their sheep getting ready to cut them. I love my drives around the city, it has almost turned into a therapeutic session which is vital for my own sanity. 

The lesson went well and my student started talking a lot more and so the lessons have been extended so we can work more and get things done a lot faster. I asked my lil student about her pet grasshopper which is no where to be seen and she told me that the grasshopper refused to eat and so she freed him yesterday evening so that it doesn't die. She is a fascinating little student with lots of stories and an immense imagination. One of her stories which sound quite legit and true, was that in her province in China they started adding "poison" (pesticides) on the leaves to kill grasshoppers which enraged the people because they were against this crime. She continued to explain that the city was becoming dirtier with all the dead grasshoppers and so they started to wash the leaves to feed the grasshoppers!(now the question that asks itself; did she imagine all this or was it true that they are amazing people?).

After the lesson, I got home and started on y little box theatre house thing, just to let you know "IT IS DIFFICULT AS HELL..!!". I kept at it until it started getting to my nerves and so I decided to stop before I turn into an ugly evil witch because of this thing which was meant to calm me down. At that point, I promised my lil one a little outing where we are going to eat at a restaurant. As promised, we went to a restaurant and he was so good that other kids and parents started wondering how he can be this cheerful. THANK GOODNESS.

I saw my lovely cousins, had a great burger and had a great chat with my student; this puts a great ending to my first day. Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)