Happy Day 77

I wasn't going to post anything this evening as I just returned home at 1am and I am extremely tired, drained and exhausted of my busy day. However, I just discovered that I am petrified of the dark and I am incapable of falling asleep in an empty room (this epiphany has just been dropped on me the day my lil man went to sleep over at his other mother's house).

Today is a lovely Wednesday; September 14th

I was really tired when I woke up and I completely felt like doing absolutely nothing this morning but mys sense of commitment towards my student forced me to get up, get ready and head to her place for an intriguing session. I was finally able to break the barrier between my student and myself, I always her to speak and express herself and she felt comfortable to tell jokes in her own little sense of humor. 

After returning home, I was preparing my lil man's backpack for his sleep over this evening. He was invited to spend the night over at his close therapist's house, I know some of you will feel very strongly about allowing your 7 year old to sleep over at someone's house, keep in mind that here in Sudan (for some awkward reason) everyone is related and you end up creating bonds rather than just people you meet. My lil man's physiotherapist is not just a therapist, he knows her since 2013 and he has been to her house 3 times already. He knows every person in her house and almost all of her family members very well. I believe that allowing my lil man to explore life without me is essential for his own sense of accomplishment and independence. 

He is always HAPPY whenever we go to a doctor's appointment!

I was dwelling on the fact that I didn't want him to go away from me because we have never parted in 3 years. I miss him already as we speak but I know he will have fun. I took my lil one to his friend's house in the afternoon then straight after the little visit we went to our annual doctor's appointment who is an experienced orthopedic pediatrician. I was pleased to hear that my lil man does not need any more surgery only physiotherapy to strengthen his weak left leg. 

The appointment came to an end very late and I had to leave the hospital, however, I knew I will not be leaving with my lil man (I WILL BE LEAVING ALONE). It had to be done though, I gave my lil man a massive hug and I crushed my soul and my weeping heart so as to not feel any pain while I walk away from him. 

Selfies at the Hospital

I spent the evening with my friend sipping coffee till about 1 after midnight before returning to an empty room which reminded me of how scared I am of the dark. As soon as I got home, I asked for photos of my lil man and I got quite a lot, yet it did not change the fact that my room is way too empty and I keep hearing sounds I never heard when my lil one was around. 

Are you scared of the dark? 

Have a Great Night Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 76

Second day of Eid and it just keeps getting more and more complicated. I have never seen as much twists and turns as I have seen these couple of days. Continuing the Eid spirit everyone, so Eid Mubarak (^_^)

Today is Tuesday; September 13th

This morning I was surprised by a phone call from my lil one's physiotherapist. She was kind enough to wish me an Eid Mubarak before cutting to the chase and asking me quite bluntly if it would be O.K. with me if my lil one had a sleep over at her place tomorrow. I was quite surprised at the request but knowing her and knowing her entire family, I figured that something was up and they want my lil one to be part of it (yes this might sound as vague and as strange as the request, but my lil one has spent the night over at her place before when it was her nephews birthday. They are like his long lost not related family). I was very happy with that invitation but normally I don't join him in such invitation so I had to face some of my anxieties in my quiet space and between me, myself and I. My little one and I are practically inseparable and have always faced the world together, so having to sleep in an empty room without him being around to bug me all night is quite difficult for me. I consider my lil man as my strength and positive source. In my head the thoughts kept piling up until I had to clear my thoughts and believe that having sometime away from each other is not only good for me it is great for him.

I went to my private lesson with the massive weight of anxiety, however, the lesson went great and the student worked quite had during the 2 hours. After the lesson, I was able to spend more time with my lil one as I had nothing to do. He was glued to YouTube as he adore Ryan and keeps reacting the scenes of his videos to me with all the sound effects and different voices. Spending some time with my lil one is one of the things I have missed quite a lot, my continuous work and various commitments never allowed me to spend such a long time with him, but I believe things will change for the best and I will plan one of our greatest holidays this year because he and I deserve it.

As you all know by now, I started working on my Box Theatre thing which is coming together extremely nicely. I was able to complete the tree house and some of the furniture this evening, to say the least check out the photos and enjoy the details. I was able to complete a massive chunk of the house and solve many of my problems while doing this. It is one of the most satisfactory things I have ever done in my entire life.

Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 57

As the weeks pass, I grow more and more fatigued from the amount of work I keep doing and being part of. Yet I refuse to drop any of it..!!

Today is Thursday; August 25th

I was extremely drained this morning for some odd reason, I couldn't believe it was Thursday. However, just the fact that today is swimming day was terrifying me. I talked to many teachers and they all keep wishing me luck and patting me on the back as if to say that IT WILL BE EFFIN DIFFICULT POOR THING..!! My only saving grace is Maria my friend who always makes me feel like there is nothing to worry and it is all under control.

The day started very quickly and in no time I found myself prepping the students to get on the bus and in absolutely no time I found myself on the bus with Miss Maria and the kids. We went to the Greek Club for our swimming session, the place was quite spacious and pretty. The problem with the whole thing is that it was all an in and out kind of a session, the kids get about 5 minutes each to go into the pool and practice their thing. After swimming we were swept back to the school juts in time for the last 5 minutes of the breakfast break and so we were given an extra 20 minutes to eat and relax. Then the day continued as usual, hectic, and it all finished in a glance.

After school I had to attend my private lesson which was great because my student is excellent and she is very entertaining as she always thinks of games we can play. So far we played Bingo, stars and chores and hangman.

The radio was as hectic as school, I was surprised with an interview as soon as I walked into the door. I wasn't happy and I clarified that point to my manager but I went through with it anyway. The interview tuned out to be the most interesting, mos smooth interview I have ever done in quite some time. My guest was fun to talk to and very chatty which was also fun.

My day really didn't end with a bang as it should since it was a Thursday but the best part of today is that Maria packed me lunch and she also provided me with an Islamic swimming suit and a swimming bag. Thank you MISS MARIA :)

Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 56

Getting closer to the end makes me feel like I should extend my challenge a bit just to stay. Separation anxiety or WHAT...!! I have difficulty letting go and this challenge is a massive part of the better more emotionally enhanced me so it will be a bit emotional coming to the end of it and seeing my challenge finishing. But I guess you always complete a challenge to let another one in and that is how you grow as a human being.

Today is Wednesday; August 24th

For some odd reason I have gone through today with the massive feeling that it is a Thursday and I will finally get to sleep in. The morning was yet another challenge to get through, however, I was able to get to school extremely early and my lil one got to the centre early too. The only reason why I dragged myself out of bed this morning is that I had a P.E. lesson the very first thing in the morning so theoretically my lil one's should be drained by the time they get to the lesson. In contrary to what I thought, my lil monsters were too energetic right after P.E. and they were only getting stronger as the day passed.

Unfortunately, I had to cancel my lesson because I had endless amount of work at school this afternoon and I ended up staying at school till about 5pm. Getting to the Radio was a bit of an issue as I was getting drained out of all the energy I had since the morning. I am also contemplating cancelling my evening lesson because it feels like a Thursday.

The radio show was a complete surprise because for once in my career as a Radio presenter I had no clue what should I talk about. Although, I was trying my very best and I was squeezing every part of my brain to get a topic, I couldn't come up with anything. I decided to talk about surprises and how you feel about them.

The best part of the day is that Maria, my very good friend packed me lunch this morning which was perfect because I had it with my morning tea. THANK YOU MARIA (^_^)

Have a great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 51

Since I am starting my second half of the challenge I will be reflecting a lot more on my life and my week. I have been through so much this week all the ups and downs and all the other challenges in my life. I decided to do a reflective post every Friday to give me a bit of a peace of mind to be able to start my week in a better mood.

Today is Friday; August 19th

I woke up very early today since I am used to waking up at 5:30am on a daily basis. The day started very good, I did most of my work and was able to organize a lot of my work which should be handed in on September 4th. I was also trying to get my head around all the private lessons I took on and decide which ones I should drop after all.

The biggest challenge I faced today is to decide whether I should continue homeschooling my lil one or should I take him to a unilingual school (although he is capable of speaking both English and Arabic fluently). When I had a conversation with the Deputy Head at school, she clarified that knowing whether to take him to school or home-school him all depends on his capabilities of continuing university and being able to graduate from university. I strongly am aware that my lil one can do it and can make it through both school and uni but how is the biggest question.

I was advised to try an interesting series called Fuzzbuzz to help my little one read English. I have been searching left, right and centre for this series online but I haven't come across the full series.

Knowing my lil ones strengths and weaknesses is not enough, being here in Sudan with a child with disability is extremely difficult. A lot of places are not trained to deal with different students who have different needs and different learning abilities. My struggle is to find the school that will take him the way he is and help him develop as a great human being who will be able to complete university and continue with his education if he desires to do so.

Although I was extremely drained and tired, I went out with my sister, her husband and the lil ones. We ended up driving along the Nile and getting a bite at the mall's food court.

Have a great morning Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 44

Long Chilled out Day.. I cancelled everything for today and decided that I will never commit to any private lesson on my only day off..

Today is Friday; August 12th

The day started on a very good note where everything was great. However, at some point inn the day my lil one decided to act up for no reason (well I doubt it was for no reason, it was mainly because I started my full time job and he started seeing me a lot less which is quite annoying not for him alone but for me too). We had great food and my sister decided to make us some great home made stuffed pasta. 

I decided in the evening to cancel my plans with my lil one due to hiss behaviour and decided to go out on my own for a change to just chill. I went to the Nile street and stayed there till midnight which was stressful and fun all at the same time. I couldn't enjoy my time because I was preoccupied with my lil one who was at home on his own.

To my surprise when I got home, my lil one was wide awake in the room watching Peppa Pig and lying on the floor. My heart melted to that sight and I spent the rest of the night with him. 

Have a great Evening Lovelies (^_^)