Happy Day 84

The day I got hold of it again. I tried to get everything together and started appreciating my days and my busy life a lot more. I still have everything and it feels like I am trying to swim against the current.

Today is Wednesday; September 21st

Another rough night and another rough day at school. Last night I hardly slept due to the electricity cut outs that happened because of the thunderstorm. I had to struggle in the morning because not only did I not have any sleep but I also am getting sicker and sicker by the minute. I am carrying a very strange chest infection that is not clearing. I had to take my lil one to the centre because I know that no one will look after him at home and no one will take him to the physo session he needs. Although I know I am the sole adult responsible of my lil one, I still need some people to help me out and to carry my burden with me. I need a support and a backbone that I can turn to whenever I am down and struggling to survive and stay on top of all my hurdles.

School was fine today as y lil ones were behaving nicely and I was able to control them a lot better. I started them on a class tree of behaviour where they have to collect 25 leaves to get reworded by being part of a group activity such as a movie night and so on. I was also happy with their work in the ART lesson where they did a water cycle in a paper plate which turned out to be a massive success.

Now I am trying to stay up at the Radio as I have a couple of private lessons right after, however, I am finding it extremely difficult to do so. I am surviving on pure coffee this week, may it all come to an end very soon as I am draining all my stored energy from the holiday.

Have a Great Evening for now Lovelies (^_^) 

Happy Day 83

The day I effed up massively at work and I feel so crap that I don't want to face anyone. In other words, the day my castle came tumbling down off the top of this Happy Hill.

Today is Tuesday; September 20th

The day was extremely rough as I was still feeling under the weather and I wasn't able to take my lil one to the centre nor to the physiotherapy session (although I arranged a taxi to pick him up and drop him at physio and the guy cancelled last minute...argh..!!). School was extremely rough too because I found out that I sent the wrong homework with the students and it was NOT RIGHT..!! I felt very bad about the mistake and I felt like a failure for missing that out on my main plan.

I also planned to stay after school, however, I failed to do that too because I felt extremely horrible. I decided to go home to relax to find out that there wasn't any electricity at home and my lil one and his cousin were sitting around enjoying the heat wave. I was extremely fed up..!!! And what made it all even worse is that the orders which I was meant to collect after school have been postponed to after Radio.

After Radio, I had to wait to collect my orders, drop an order all the way in the city centre and get back home to an empty house where the little ones were extremely tired and had no supervision. My mum left to attend a little gathering and my sister was at the hospital. I felt very exhausted and extremely drained as soon as I got home, but I had to feed the little one and put the rest to sleep. I felt all alone this day as if no one is there to help me out, I had no support and no one to talk to. Life is difficult as it is and no one is trying to make it easier.

At least I got a bag of coffee from Ethiopia from my dearest friend Maria as well as earrings. more earrings to my collection and a gift from France from another great friend Irina.

Have a Great Evening Lovelies for now, I need to rest my eyes (^_^)

Happy Day 51

Since I am starting my second half of the challenge I will be reflecting a lot more on my life and my week. I have been through so much this week all the ups and downs and all the other challenges in my life. I decided to do a reflective post every Friday to give me a bit of a peace of mind to be able to start my week in a better mood.

Today is Friday; August 19th

I woke up very early today since I am used to waking up at 5:30am on a daily basis. The day started very good, I did most of my work and was able to organize a lot of my work which should be handed in on September 4th. I was also trying to get my head around all the private lessons I took on and decide which ones I should drop after all.

The biggest challenge I faced today is to decide whether I should continue homeschooling my lil one or should I take him to a unilingual school (although he is capable of speaking both English and Arabic fluently). When I had a conversation with the Deputy Head at school, she clarified that knowing whether to take him to school or home-school him all depends on his capabilities of continuing university and being able to graduate from university. I strongly am aware that my lil one can do it and can make it through both school and uni but how is the biggest question.

I was advised to try an interesting series called Fuzzbuzz to help my little one read English. I have been searching left, right and centre for this series online but I haven't come across the full series.

Knowing my lil ones strengths and weaknesses is not enough, being here in Sudan with a child with disability is extremely difficult. A lot of places are not trained to deal with different students who have different needs and different learning abilities. My struggle is to find the school that will take him the way he is and help him develop as a great human being who will be able to complete university and continue with his education if he desires to do so.

Although I was extremely drained and tired, I went out with my sister, her husband and the lil ones. We ended up driving along the Nile and getting a bite at the mall's food court.

Have a great morning Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 44

Long Chilled out Day.. I cancelled everything for today and decided that I will never commit to any private lesson on my only day off..

Today is Friday; August 12th

The day started on a very good note where everything was great. However, at some point inn the day my lil one decided to act up for no reason (well I doubt it was for no reason, it was mainly because I started my full time job and he started seeing me a lot less which is quite annoying not for him alone but for me too). We had great food and my sister decided to make us some great home made stuffed pasta. 

I decided in the evening to cancel my plans with my lil one due to hiss behaviour and decided to go out on my own for a change to just chill. I went to the Nile street and stayed there till midnight which was stressful and fun all at the same time. I couldn't enjoy my time because I was preoccupied with my lil one who was at home on his own.

To my surprise when I got home, my lil one was wide awake in the room watching Peppa Pig and lying on the floor. My heart melted to that sight and I spent the rest of the night with him. 

Have a great Evening Lovelies (^_^)