Happy Day 86

My day off with no work, social life and nothing, let's start reflecting instead...

Today is Friday; September 23rd

I planned ages ago to start homeschooling my lil one as I still haven't found a school that will take him with his disability and is ready to conduct oral examinations for him. However, my plan of homeschooling has failed miserably. The problem is that I am constantly working to provide him with the health care he needs and the personal care he needs. I am also working between my full time and part time jobs. It is sometimes overwhelming to the extend that I hardly see my lil one and I hardly spend any time with him (poor child..!!).

When I look back at his life, poor thing, I feel like I missed out on many goals he had achieved. It is extremely sad but it is very expensive and maintaining a good life style is very difficult specially when you are a single mother. My lil one is still attending an activity centre in the morning where he interacts with other children, however, school is still not on my list. I have been told about 2 schools one of which is ready to accept him the way he is and put him with his peers who are his age, I will be visiting this school very soon and he might start with them after Christmas. Another school which is known as the best Arabic Language school in Khartoum, is on my list but I don't have a lot of information on that school except that it is extremely far.

Finding a school is not only a difficult part in any parent's journey but it is also draining to a crazy extend. I am blessed that I decided to stop him from school this year as it was increasing the stress between us and our relationship has grown to become very intense and extremely uncomfortable due to the amount of school work he had to do, not putting in mind his Cerebral Palsy and all the physical limitation it had on his muscle control.

I understand him more now and I do allow my lil one a bit of space to do things the way he wants to do it without the intensity of perfecting his handwriting, his writing skills and reading skills. I only started loving him for the person he is not the image I wan him to be. Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)

Happy Day 84

The day I got hold of it again. I tried to get everything together and started appreciating my days and my busy life a lot more. I still have everything and it feels like I am trying to swim against the current.

Today is Wednesday; September 21st

Another rough night and another rough day at school. Last night I hardly slept due to the electricity cut outs that happened because of the thunderstorm. I had to struggle in the morning because not only did I not have any sleep but I also am getting sicker and sicker by the minute. I am carrying a very strange chest infection that is not clearing. I had to take my lil one to the centre because I know that no one will look after him at home and no one will take him to the physo session he needs. Although I know I am the sole adult responsible of my lil one, I still need some people to help me out and to carry my burden with me. I need a support and a backbone that I can turn to whenever I am down and struggling to survive and stay on top of all my hurdles.

School was fine today as y lil ones were behaving nicely and I was able to control them a lot better. I started them on a class tree of behaviour where they have to collect 25 leaves to get reworded by being part of a group activity such as a movie night and so on. I was also happy with their work in the ART lesson where they did a water cycle in a paper plate which turned out to be a massive success.

Now I am trying to stay up at the Radio as I have a couple of private lessons right after, however, I am finding it extremely difficult to do so. I am surviving on pure coffee this week, may it all come to an end very soon as I am draining all my stored energy from the holiday.

Have a Great Evening for now Lovelies (^_^) 

Happy Day 83

The day I effed up massively at work and I feel so crap that I don't want to face anyone. In other words, the day my castle came tumbling down off the top of this Happy Hill.

Today is Tuesday; September 20th

The day was extremely rough as I was still feeling under the weather and I wasn't able to take my lil one to the centre nor to the physiotherapy session (although I arranged a taxi to pick him up and drop him at physio and the guy cancelled last minute...argh..!!). School was extremely rough too because I found out that I sent the wrong homework with the students and it was NOT RIGHT..!! I felt very bad about the mistake and I felt like a failure for missing that out on my main plan.

I also planned to stay after school, however, I failed to do that too because I felt extremely horrible. I decided to go home to relax to find out that there wasn't any electricity at home and my lil one and his cousin were sitting around enjoying the heat wave. I was extremely fed up..!!! And what made it all even worse is that the orders which I was meant to collect after school have been postponed to after Radio.

After Radio, I had to wait to collect my orders, drop an order all the way in the city centre and get back home to an empty house where the little ones were extremely tired and had no supervision. My mum left to attend a little gathering and my sister was at the hospital. I felt very exhausted and extremely drained as soon as I got home, but I had to feed the little one and put the rest to sleep. I felt all alone this day as if no one is there to help me out, I had no support and no one to talk to. Life is difficult as it is and no one is trying to make it easier.

At least I got a bag of coffee from Ethiopia from my dearest friend Maria as well as earrings. more earrings to my collection and a gift from France from another great friend Irina.

Have a Great Evening Lovelies for now, I need to rest my eyes (^_^)

Happy Day 82

A sleepless night filled with tossing and turning and aggravating fever.

Today is Monday; September 19th

I honestly just wanted to curl up in bed this evening, switch off my phone and not to face the world. If it wasn't for my students and the fact that I know no one will be able to complete my plan the way I want to, I would have been spending the night at home with my lil one who was also not feeling well as all. I dragged myself out of bed with my feverish body and drowsy head and upset stomach. I had to sip on Lemon juice so as to stop myself from emptying my stomach first thing in the morning. Due to my unknown sickness my lil one had to stay at home too (Thankfully his shadow teacher called me first thing in the morning and she informed me of her inability to attend school today because her son broke his hand @_@).

I walked ever so slowly to the rickshaw which I had to wait for for a bit then I got to school quite early. I was unable to walk up the stairs nor sit and print my work, my only saving grace was my first lesson which will be taught by the Arabic Teacher. As I dragged my feet down the stairs to prepare the lesson worksheets, I decided to get some coffee which was my last resort before informing the principal of my decision of going home a bit early due to my sickness. I got my coffee made for me by my great Ethiopian friend Tigis and I accidentally met the principal whom I told of my illness and my health condition. As soon as I sipped a bit of the coffee I felt energetic instantly and I felt like nothing was wrong. I decided to continue my day without cutting it short as if nothing had happened, thankfully my little monkeys behaved superb and that what helped me continue the day with great energy. I also had another sip of coffee just to make sure that its effect will continue even after the school hours as I had my private lesson and Radio.

The private lesson was great, it is flowing quite smoothly and I am able to complete the unit in time before she travels back to China. Radio went well but the best part of it was getting a present of Sarah (who works at the Radio and just got back from Tunisia and she also started the 362 days of happiness after witnessing my 100 days of happiness). I FINALLY GOT NEW EARRINGS and a HERBAL SOUP (^_^)

With my exhausting day and my draining evening I must say Have a Great Evening Lovelies (^_^)