Happy Day 3

Things unfolded nicely today, I was able to contain my anger and keep my anxiety at bay. I was also able to maintain a positive, balanced outlook of my day which I am extremely proud of (massive pat on MY BACK). My overall reflection is that I ALWAYS tend to allow people to influence my decisions and my moods, however, I am more than capable of blocking them and focus only on myself and what is beneficial for me and my lil one (Today was a lovely proof of that ^_^).

I have never thought being late can be such a blessing. I woke up late today so my lil one missed his ride to his physio session and he ended up going later than usual which I thought was very upsetting but it turned out that he enjoyed staying at home for a bit longer. 

MASSIVE THANK YOU to Tibyan his great physiotherapist for looking after my lil one at physio

I haven't mentioned this before but I conduct private English lessons as a way of making extra cash which ends up paying for little things such as transportation, snacks, toys and my lil ones whims. This morning my students ended up coming late which was also a blessing as I had more time to spend with my lil one before he went to physio, I also was able to pack him lunch for his long day ahead and I ended up preparing for a meeting which was taking place right after my private lesson. The students ride ended up coming late too which allowed me enough time to finish what I needed to cover and allowed them some time to watch a bit of "The Young Titans"!

Although I arrived very late at my meeting where everyone was waiting for me (honestly, I didn't want to go because of the heat, the sun and my pure laziness), I was able to attend the most important part of the meeting and I had all my questions answered. With this new job offer on my busy plate, I would normally suffer from anxiety and stress which are caused by the desire to make people around you happy, BUT I DID NOT STRESS (Yaaaaaaaay...!!). I weighed the pros and cons of accepting this job and taking it on board of my crazy busy schedule and I was able to come to a clear decision of what I honestly want to do.

The best part of today is that I allowed myself to follow my gut feeling (I always hear people talking about it, but I never allowed myself to follow my gut feeling and listen to the signals around me. Maybe it is my busy life style or my pure ignorance, I don't know..!!). It felt like once my inner soul was at peace and I calmed down all the anger, pessimism and disappointment, I was able to enjoy my present, the moment that I live in which I always tend to forget because I was constantly either stressing over my future or depressing over my past. The Now that matters the most.

As I finished my meeting at around 4pm, I had a gut feeling that urged me to pass by my son's physio just to make sure he was picked up earlier. To my surprise, I found my lil one still at physio playing around as my brother in-law ended being caught up at work and he wasn't able to pick my lil one up o drop him at home. My lil one greeted me with a massive cheesy smile on his face and he was excited about our ride home together.

The day continued to have some unexpected things such as cancelled exciting plans to go shopping (thankful it was cancelled because I would've ended up splurging) and uncancelled cancelled boring plans to give another private lesson (grateful it ended up happening because I found out that my student is afraid of disappointing me.. she thinks highly of me!!! SUPER HAPPY).

Now I am waiting for my nail polish to dry so I can get a bite to eat then straight to sleep. Good Night Lovelies. 

Don't forget to enjoy your now whatever you are doing because you can't change your past and you definitely can't control your future. All you have is "NOW".

Happy Day 2

Today was a difficult day for my 100 happy days challenge, I am trying very hard not to remember all the things that went wrong and I'm forcing myself to focus on the positive events. I am biting my tongue, holding myself back and containing my anger, and inner aggression that is fighting to come out. It is quite a challenge to change your mindset and be able to calmly remember to be HAPPY (never thought it is..!! No wonder it was called "a challenge").

This morning was great though, I spent some quality time with my lil son and my nephew who were excited about the presents I got them. We played football, my son ended up walking better using his new leg braises and we enjoyed the morning fresh air. I then showed them how to plant some Fenugreek seeds which they were happy with. Then we went in for a snack and to watch some TV. 

The day continued to be relaxed, chilled and quite good, as I found an online ad for a Kids Bazaar (conveniently located near where I live and in a Cafe which means coffee time). I ended up going to the Bazaar with my lil one, bought some clothes and enjoyed my coffee. Now thinking back to that moment in time, what really happened is that the Bazaar started bizarrely late and I ended up buying unfitting clothes, however, (on the bright side) I spent some time with my lil one which he enjoyed. He loved going shopping and choosing his own clothes (although baggy and oddly fitting) and he ended up having a fresh orange juice. I also loved talking to my lil one as an adult and I loved how he has grown into a young man. It felt like I missed quite a lot without realizing how time passes. 

Photo credits goes to my lovely son Aboodi ^_^

Later in the evening, I managed to get a free ride to print some paper for my private classes, I got back home on time, I didn't spend a penny over my budget and I was able to conduct a smooth lesson with my students. 

So I guess, an overall success on my second day regardless of the few glitches that happened to remind me that I am part of other people's lives as well as they are part of mine. 

Now, I need to make me some coffee and sweets to conclude my Happy Day 2. Good Night Lovelies.

Also a massive note to self "Things happen in its own time so you can't force it, just sit back relax and enjoy the journey taking you there" and of course don't forget to put in a bit of an effort while you are at it.

Happy Day 1

My lil one suffers from mild Cerebral Palsy (to all the families who are living with Cerebral Palsy a massive hats off to all of you), although he was never prescribed any medication, recently his condition became stagnant and he was given Baclofen (a medicine which is a nervous system relaxant). I was extremely unhappy about the decision of him going on medicine but just today his condition is getting a tad bit better although extremely slowly but, I am grateful and over the moon for that slight development.

Another happy moment was that I have decided to give one of my colleagues at the Radio a little present which made her happy and that was exciting. I also decided to attend a work get together, fighting all the forces in my soul that were urging me to stay at home and continue being antisocial and a massive miserable cow. On my way to the restaurant, I decided to tip the rickshaw driver and socialize like a normal human being at the restaurant with all my colleagues some of who I have not met in quite a long time. later on this evening, I also was straight to one of my colleagues about her toxic behaviour towards herself and I was brutally honest which I was happy about because I felt like everyone was feeding on her toxicity without stopping it (fingers crossed she listened and took it in).

Since I already admitted of being a miserable cow, it's worth mentioning that I am extremely Camera Shy and I hate taking photos. But of-course this is going out of the window as well and I took many photos when I was at the restaurant with my colleagues. Then I went to execute a great episode at my radio show Chit Chat Cafe at Capital Radio 91.6FM.

I finished off my evening by buying some presents for my little one which to my surprise turned out to be his favourite thing in the whole wide world "ACTION FIGURES" (If you think that was a normal thing to find at a toy store, well you are mistaken my friend). And I also bought a couple of footballs for my lil one and my nephew to play with.

Now, I am enjoying a great cup of coffee with great sweets to conclude my Happy Day 1

Just to let you know guys, my day actually started on a very bad note with lots of screaming, shouting, crying and again a bit of hating my life. Good Night Lovelies 

First thing is First...

Hi guys...

I really don't know how to start this but I would like to welcome you on board of my silly challenge that will hopefully change my mindset. So My name is Maya and I live in Sudan with my lil one who is 6 -soon to be 7- years old. I am a single mum by choice and I am extremely proud of myself and my achievements so far.

I just want to clarify my personal reasons behind starting this challenge, although silly in my opinion. First of all, being in Sudan for 3 years now and having to face everything alone specially when it comes down to my lil one's health issues and education was extremely difficult. I feel like all my life's worth of positive energy has been drained out of my soul. I have recently become a miserable cow who lacks confidence in not only herself but people around her. It came to a point in my life where I hated everything in my life including my work, family and surroundings. And I thought to myself "Why not start this challenge and let's see if it actually works". I came across this challenge through one of my great friends Weaam (although I kept mocking her at the beginning), I was drawn to the challenge and hence I started it.